Lashing out for revenge

I feel awful tonight.

I got revenge on somebody this weekend, and instead of the glee I expected, I feel sorrow. He may have 'deserved it', but I know I've deserved much worse in my life. And the one I owe the most to, God, has shown me the most mercy.

As Paul said, I find myself doing the things I don't want to do. I don't want to be hateful toward others, even when they are difficult at times to be around. As I wrote about yesterday, I want to show love toward everyone. I want to be an example of Christ, and he certainly didn't go around getting revenge on the pharisees for the awful way they treated him.

I know the only thing that will bring me peace is to ask forgiveness of the person I wronged. He'll probably laugh at me, but what does that matter if it gives me a heart of peace and joy?